Saturday, March 23, 2013

Have I Lost My Mind?

"Worrying does not take away tomorrow's troubles. It takes away today's peace." ~ Randy Armstrong


Well, this is it. After next week, I am officially retired.

I am trying so hard to focus on the good GREAT things ahead. But ... I just can't stop second guessing my decision. Thousands of people my age would love to have a decent-paying job with benefits. And I'm pretty sure that I'll never find another one, if I ever want or need to. Which is, really, the scary part - knowing there is no going back.

I've experienced quite an assortment of reactions from coworkers, from happiness at my good fortune, to resentment that I'm retiring "so early". But to a person, they are jealous.

And that's the most telling thing, isn't it. Nobody wants to be there. And everyone wishes they were me. So why can't I just grin and enjoy it?


Linda Myers said...

I started my blog back in January of 2010 for just these reasons.

Daryl said...

because change like that is scary ... but you are going to have a great time with your camera and learning to relax and just not feel pressured ever again ...

simply bev said...

This is a strange moment in life, but as soon as you build a new daily routine and with some time (give yourself plenty of time to adjust) you'll begin to enjoy your new life. Be extra gentle with yourself for a while.

MyMaracas said...

Thanks to all of you for your kindness and support. I really don't know what's wrong with me. I should be ecstatic. Guess it's as you say - change is hare,and I need to be a bit more gentle on myself. Again - thanks!